It depends on what you want,

Alina,

I can always be by your side, but not where I met you. I would love to spend all day there with you, but I do not know if even a millionaire can afford that. I am truly sorry I am not a millionaire. I have to stay out of places like that now, as I spent too much money.

That is all I will say about money, except right now my medical insurance costs 1200 dollars per month, which is a lot of money for me. I hope this is going to change.

If you only want me by your side where I met you , I cannot do that. I am really sorry.

You can contact me live on
Yahoo Messenger
or
MSN Messenger
or
Skype
or whatever you want.
Maybe you do not want that.
If you do want that, then let me know
and I will give you the screennames.

I have a lot more to tell you, but
I will wait to see
what you want.

Someone who adores you, as difficult as you might be

Alex

Thanks, Alina.

Thank you, Alina.
You almost understood what I was saying.
I now know the woman would think
I was stupid or crazy if I asked
her what I wanted to ask her.
I very much adore her.
I think my feelings for her
are just a fantasy, and she could
never have the same feelings for me.

She is very beautiful and
almost always knows the right thing to say to me.
I think the best thing for me to do now
is just to go back to living my life.

Thanks again.

(I hope you understand me this time)

Alex

Advice

Alina,

I will try to help you with your health problems, as much as I can. I do not know when the right time for you would be. I hope the doctors are wrong, and you can have children. The world needs more people like you.

I wrote a much longer post, but I deleted it already. I will only say instead that you are goodhearted, intelligent, kind, witty, have a good sense of humor, and we share some of the same interests.

I truly hope that I find a new treatment that will work. Even if I do, it is probably true I will
not live a lot more years.

So, I want to ask your advice about something.

If my health does return, do you think if I knew a woman
I truly adored, she would understand that I might
ask her something that I would not ask her if my life
were different?

I mean..my life will be short. I do not like to think this way, but that
is the reality of my disease. This makes my reality very different
and her reality different also. I mean, my years will be short,
and so it is not about a long lifetime.

I have never been in love in my life.
I have always wanted to experience this
at least one time in my life.

Thanks for any answer.